sueno: May 2006

ok..ok..ok!!! here is the freakin pictures you all have been asking after...I couldn't develop fast enough for ya...hope you like them...i included some shots of him with his band cause thats a big part of his life...besides me and God and all that stuff..

sooooo...i am well...really well...it has been a hard couple of weeks...learning a lot about myself and all the things that have been weighing me down.. i am learning to rest...and face fear, and get over having to be 'something' apart from what i am...honestly..i am seriously coming back to a good place with Christ. I realized that so many expectations surround me...my own high standards for my life, and those which were unconsiously placed on me by others...this would lead to my feeling the need to have to perform or live up to an exhausting standard. i know God brought me here to gain some perspective and to gain some health in order to not work myself into the ground..

there have also been a lot of signs pointing to my absolute need to begin creating art...calling myself an artist and making it a priority...Isaac and i went down to wellington for my birthday..(which was sweet) and on our hitchhike back..we were picked up by none other than a woman who was an actress/photographer/ppoet/and film worker..who was convinietly heading straight to the mount (where i live).which is seriously 7 hours north...crazy? yep.

we drove all the way home with her and she basically counselled and exhorted me to make a lot of art! hahha it was random and a moment where God got me at my own game...i was stunned and honored.

isaac and i are good...we hit a rough patch as i was going crazy dealing with my over analytical mind and trying to find ways to get out as it scared me to truly have met someone genuine who really loves me. its amazing and after wrestling with my own fears i have come to a sweet place where i am overwhelmed by the gift of him in my life..he truly is a lovey man and i am so grateful for him...i am a lucky girl...a lucky girl.

on a lighter note....guess whati did for my birthday.....Matt...Cam....Ren...

I WENT TO THE LORD OF THE RINGS EXHIBIT!!!!

oh yeah....

it was INCREDIBLE...

i got to see the sets, models, costumes, and storyboards.....it was wicked, i nerded out entirely and Isaac saw my true nature...and the whole time i kept thinking..'i can't wait to tell the guys.....they will be soooooo jealous...'

so there...i told you.....yep:)

aside from that i am chillin in the mount till the middle of June...then heading to the south island for 3 weeks....then over to aussie landfor a brief stint...i am trying to sort out whats next but i may be home the end of august...sweet hey:)

i miss you guys and love you...see cam...i took your advice and updated my blog.....(smile)

i even got to touch treebeard....sigh....